If I Knew Then What I Know Now

I sometimes wish I could go back in time to when I was pregnant with Brooke and just show myself…

It’s not scary…

Having a child with Down syndrome…

How can this be scary?

She’s just a little girl…

A little girl who loves kisses and dancing, goldfish crackers and swinging, chocolate donuts and playing with her babies…

Sure, Brooke’s speech is delayed and her beautiful almond eyes show that she obviously  has Down syndrome…

But does that not look like a girl who loves life?

I wish I would have known how genuinely happy Brooke would be…and not happy because she has Down syndrome and all people with Down syndrome are happy…but because she’s loved and she knows it…

Happy because she gets play with her dolls….

Brooke is happy because she has two brothers and a sister that love her…

So really? What was I so worried about?

Brooke will be fine.  No, wait…Brooke is fine….

And all of us that love her will always make sure that stays true….

*Did you know that October is Down syndrome Awareness Month? That’s why I’ve been writing more about Brooke lately…and if you’re curious about what Down syndrome looks like for other families, then please, read some other blogs below….


  1. In my humble opinion she is happy JUST LIKE ALL OF YOUR KIDS because she knows she is loved JUST LIKE ALL OF YOUR KIDS and has wonderful parents JUST LIKE ALL OF YOUR KIDS.
    You rock this mom thing!
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  2. Alison says:

    She really is a beautiful little girl. And you’re a great mom.
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  3. Beautifully written. Excellent points!
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  4. Stop making me love you more. It’s painful. xo
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  5. This is just lovely…I have a daughter who has special needs. She was recently diagnosed with CP and your words here resonate so deeply with me and really and truly speak to the heart of who are children are in spite of their challenges. Thank you for giving me more food for thought this morning!
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  6. Jen says:

    These photos and words are really beautiful. Fear is normal. A mama’s bravery is powerful thing…and usually eventually brings us to such unexpected places…where the view is always totally worth the drive!
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  7. Mom Off Meth says:

    That was so beautiful. Honestly. Your family is so beautiful. Wonderful stuff lady!!
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  8. Honest and very lovely. When kids know they are loved, they are very happy kids!!
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  9. Michelle says:

    Perfect time for me to read this – I just got home from our IEP meeting. We too often hope for something in the future to be different about our children and forget the now when they are so awesome and special and happy in their own right. I love this focus!
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  10. Jester Queen says:

    I can just HEAR the belly laugh that must accompany the purple picture. She’s beautiful.
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  11. Angie says:

    We fear the unknown. It is a simple fact. We also want the best for our children. Life is full of difficulties as it is. When we know that our child will have added battles on top of the all the others, well of course we are afraid. That fear and overcoming it were and are part of your journey. They make you who you are, the mother of 4 incredible children. :-)

  12. Holly…I LOVE YOU, your children are all beautiful, you are beautiful. I can understand how the unknown had to be scary but you are right..looking at her? she is just a beautiful little girl. You are an inspiration as I am sure all of the blogs you listed. You all rock.
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  13. Your kids are BEAUTIFUL!!!!!!!! Thank you for sharing pictures!! I LOVE the shot with chocolate face!! Cracks me UP!!
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  14. Chris Carter says:

    SO lovely… what a blessing EVERY child is to us!! There truly isn’t a child who is not unique and special in every way. Much like all your children, I’m sure! But I think I would have gone through those same fears had I been you. Don’t you love your better dream? SO cool. :)
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  15. christina says:

    So true! And As long she had people that love her dearly, she will do fine!. I have a 45 yr old Aunt with Down Syndrome and shes always a delight. While they are very sensitive with their feelings, they also remind us all of the innocent things in life and whats important.

  16. Jill says:

    I did NOT know Oct was DS awareness month!!!
    I love all your pictures you post here and on FB! Makes me feel like I know you guys!
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  17. Becca says:

    Totally. Lovely. <3
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  18. Sasha says:

    I’ve been out of the blog world for a while and your sweet Brooke has gotten to be such a big girl! She is beautiful!

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